Whole

Parts of me vanished
to give you a fighting chance
what did it get me
empty arms 

and scattered pieces of myself

I still want you
desperately
but I also want
what I already have

And I’m wondering 
if he’s waiting for 
revival of the girl 
he gave a fighting chance

To write
explore
create
lead

I see you in dreams
running wild
I hope to find you
someday, somehow

but also, and this might be the most important part

While I look
to bring you to life
I’ll also be
fighting for myself